Life's in a mess

Had a very overloaded month in march. Had three exhibitions back to back followed by Poly roadshows... Now in the midst of the MTA show 07 which starts this sat.... Work is packed till the brim but that is how i like it to be... HAHAHA as for my personal life.. Frankly it is rolling down the hill man... Confused and lost and maybe i am just fated to be alone.. Haizzz SUI YUAN ba haizzzz..................

Bored Boring Tired Day

Feeling very tired today could be due to me waking up early every morning... I hate waking up early... Anyway work was packed today had a meeting with the team today to delegate tasks to everyone by our manager den there is still the heaps of paperwork to finish... New orders and amendments coming in everyday cant this people just make up their mind... so troublesome... after work went to bugis to meet shannon (shatec classmate) who is now an financial advisor to sign some documents den went for dinner alone.. ate mos burger my favourite fastfood outlet afterwhich i took a very long walk from bugis to esplanade den from esplanade to orchard den took a bus home from orchard.. Din feel like going home so early so decided to take a walk haha... well tats all the things i did today...


I dun know what is troubling u or wat has happen but i hope tat u will get over it cos u shld know me i dun like to see u sad or unhappy....

Ghost Rider!!!!!!!!! Kool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just watch Ghost Rider today he is just so cool the way he handle the bad guys.. Awesome the story and the narration was pretty simple and boring but the effects were good... A good movie to watch to past time... Well work is starting to get pretty hectic these 2 days... a lot of paperwork to clear, sort, file, update and draw too... next week would be my first time on site at the exhibition.. I will be assisting my assistant manager at both the IT fair next week and the Food and Beverage fair the week after... hopefully it will be an enriching and fruitful experience... I still dun know was kind of career i want.. Pretty lost to be honest tats why i got this new job to try whether i fit into this industry... The prospects for this career is promising but there is always the good and the bad about everything and the bad part is i will have to sacrifice a lot of personal time if i am to continue in this line... Well lets just give it a try first den we see how...

Joey, i am not sure if u are reading my blog but if u do i really meant wat i say... and can u please help me find a skin i can change and help me do it cos i am an total idiot when it comes to the script writing i suck at it.. Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brand New Year!!!!!!

Hi guys must have been years since I blogged so sorry for the MIA.... Anyway its 2007 a brand new year got a brand new job new environment... Working part time at an events management company... Just started new environment new people hopefully i can blend in.... Anyway i almost lost my blog luckily i am able to get it back did some changes edited a lot of posts, deleted all the unhappy ones and so a brand new start.... May all my frens have a good year ahead....


P.S Joey i re-edited my blog so now u can read le hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A story about tree, leaf and wind

A touching story that i would like to share with the rest of my friends

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Tree
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The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason made her accompany me for 3 years. She watches me chase after gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile and say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing have ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heartache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together with someone. I know who is the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heartache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heartache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weight stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay".

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Leaf
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During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend.

Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes and his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him and love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me SMS. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

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Wind
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Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amiss. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.

Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepted the note.

The next day, she appeared & passed me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never wants to leave tree, I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me.

Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide, I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell.

During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

I am the God of Gambling!!!

What a week!!! First was christmas den new year and throughout the whole week i was playing cho dai di everyday... play through christmas and also play through new year... muz be siao liao.. lucky neva play $$ if not sure lose like siao also... this muz be the best christmas n new year i had. I had a very enjoyable time with my cousins and friends... sure wish that everyday can be this enjoyable and fun.... haizzz poor me still dun have a gf to spent christmas with me haizzzz... so sad... but hee hee sometimes having a gf may not be good cos now cant even support myself how to support gf siah... sure die of hunger loh... haizzz anyway to whoever reading my blog... HAPPY NEW YEAR and may all of you have a great year ahead...

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HO Ho Ho!!! Its my birthday... Lets make a wish ................................. Done. Today i worked like a slave.. sweep the floor, mop the floor, clean out my room re arrange the furniture.. i even built a DIY cupboard that is bigger and taller den me on my own.. What a unforgetable bday... haizzz but i was happy doing it and thats what counts... anyway thanks to all those that have wished me happy birthday and may all my friends have a white christmas!!!!